About that not driving thing...

So, things at work are not great. I don't want to join the group of people who have been fired for blogging about work so I can't say much; I'll leave it at work sucks right now, and I don't see it getting any better anytime soon. What is keeping me from moving on to bigger and better things? I don't drive. This weekend I got a big push in the direction of I have to start driving or my life will suck forever! So, I have an appointment today to get my permit (yet again). Hopefully this time I can get through my fear and just do it.

Better and Better

Things have been getting better. I've started getting my apartment cleaned out. We have so much stuff and no room for anything; it's just created a constant mess. The messiness creates an atmosphere of frustration and anxiety, which in turn makes me tired and cranky and depressed. So I've spent the past week going through things and getting rid of things. I threw out 6 bags of trash, most of it shredded paper, and got about 5 or 6 boxes cleared out of the bedroom. We still have a long way to go, but it's a start. I am feeling lighter today and less frenetic. I'm trying to decide on a posting schedule that I can stick to so I am updating more often. Also, I'm trying to decide if I should just focus on one or two topics here. My passions are video games and the internet and I am really getting into knitting. I am a 30 something year old female who loves video games and knits; are there that many of us out there? I have no clue.
Tonight I'll be eating pizza and watching the new Star Wars DVD that was just released. I'm not overwhelmingly excited about Star Wars, but I get to spend time with Aaron. :)

Good times

I had a really nice day yesterday. Usually I have to walk to work, it takes 20 minutes, and I usually suffer from a panic attack along the way. I don't live in a horrible neighborhood, but there are enough wierdos out there to keep me on my toes. So, by the time I get to work I am exhausted. Yesterday I had my fiance drop me off on his way to work, so I got to work a couple hours early, but I was relaxed and calm and felt good. Did I forget to mention that I don't drive? Yes, I am a thirty something woman who lives in an urban area and doesn't drive. Why anyone would want to drive here is beyond me. There is a constant stream of debris at the intersection of my apartment complex, from all those crazy drivers running into eachother. Anyway, my day at work started out calm and relaxed, and remained that way for the rest of the day. I was afraid to breath a sigh of relief for fear that the craziness would commence the minute I did, but no craziness ever commenced.

I'm hoping today will be a quiet day as well, even though I have to walk to work today.

I started reading Spook by Mary Roach today. I read Stiff last year; great book. Stiff helped me decide what I wanted done with me when I finally go; that would be to let the person who has to deal with me do what they want. :) Spook looks equally as interesting. So far I'm just into the first chapter on reincarnation, but have had more than a few laughs.
Well, off to do homework, and getting ready for an exciting walk to work.

P.S. I turned comments back on. :)

Google

In case you don't notice, I just added a Google search box and Google Adsense to the side of my blog.

The past couple of days have not been so bad, though I don't know if I can really judge what a good day, or bad day, really is anymore. Yesterday was crazy day from hell at work, but I didn't feel like it was a bad day; just, another day. I don't really drink (maybe 2 or three times a year), yesterday I went straight to Chevy's and had a margarita.
I've got to start knitting again. I plan on making lots of scarves, for family and friends, this winter, so I need to get started.
My new class started. I think I will like this one a lot better. I get to write lots of papers, and do lots of research, which I enjoy so much more than crunching numbers. I have started playing Neverwinter Nights again as well, and am very much looking forward to Neverwinter Nights 2. Weeeeee! Okay, got things to do and must be off....

Time for change

All this stress and burn-out I have been experiencing can only mean one thing....change is needed. When I think about doing something else, like making money some other way, I feel excited and hopeful. I really want, no need, to do something different, I'm just not sure what. So far today I've gone over a few different things I can do right now to get started doing something different, and I feel like I may be on the right track. Also, right now I need to be working on my final for class, which is due today. I need to do a lot of research to see if I can get started doing what I want, right now. Making a living while having time for family and friends, and myself, is what we all want and right now I really need it.

I Need To Post!!!

For weeks now, everytime I sit down at the computer I think to myself "I need to post to my blog", and every single time I also think to myself "there is nothing worth posting about". I have been in a terrible funk and just can't seem to climb out of it. I've had some really great things happen this year, I should be happy, but I'm not; I'm miserable right now. More than anything I just want to take some time away from everything to just be by myself. I could just be feeling the stress of school. I only have one more year and then I am done, but I've done it for two years straight now, no breaks, and I am burned out.