hmmmm....

While I love my new layout and background, the functionality of my blog is kinda sucky. I may need to trash it and start over with one of the Blogger layouts. I hate, hate, hate the Blogger templates! I really should just get a new domain just for my blog, but I don't know if I can afford the added expense right now.

In other news...I haven't been feeling real great the past few days. We've been going through hell with Baby G. He's on the Zantac now, and starting to sleep better; hopefully his new sleeping patterns are a trend towards him sleeping LONGER than one hour at a time. Thanks to the medication (I think) we have been able to start him on a schedule.
On Tuesday I was up for 24 HOURS! I had been up for about 18 to 20 hours the day before and then I had about 3 or 4 hours of sleep just before the 24 hour thing and had only gotten about a 30 minute nap 3 hours into the 24 hour thing. (Does any of that makes sense?) By the end of the day Tuesday I was a wreck. I had had almost no sleep for 24 hours and for at least 12 of those hours I had to deal with a screaming baby. By the time Aaron got home from work I was a mess, my eyes were red from crying and I could barely speak. After that I got 5 hours of sleep and had to go back to baby care so Aaron could get some sleep before work. When I got up yesterday morning I started crying again, I was just so darn tired! I can totally understand why sleep deprivation is used as a means of controlling someone's mind. UGH! Luckily Baby G was an angel yesterday. He stuck to his new schedule and when he was awake he giggled and smiled and had fun. *Sigh*. Hopefully today goes just as well, because I am totally stressing over financial issues and the disorganized mess my home has become; I thought it was bad before I had a baby.
Smoking? Exercise? Hahahaha. Um, yea. I may need to see the doctor about getting back on Welbutrin.

Sleep; yes again.

This week my goal is to get as much sleep as possible while Baby G sleeps. This has been an impossibility from the time we brought him home. He won't sleep longer than an hour and spends most of that hour either grunting trying to get out the gas or poop, or "talking"; he sighs, moans, groans, laughs, and babbles. I never know if he is awake or still asleep. Aaron and I have been taking shifts with him. He'll take over so I can get a good chunk of sleep, usually about 6 hours, and I take over so he can then get his 8 hours. He started back to work last week and on Sunday my daughter went back home. Aaron is working until next Tuesday, and...he is sick. He is horribly sick. I am not sure if it is the flu or a cold yet, but he sounds, and looks horrible. I just got up after having tried to sleep for 4 hours. 4 hours spent getting up twice to let the cat either into or out of the room, 4 hours listening to Baby G cry (while Aaron tries to sooth him)because I am tired of getting up for the cat so I must leave the door open. When was the last time I got some sleep? Yesterday morning for two hours. I almost got in a nap yesterday, but 10 minutes after I laid down, Baby G decided it was a great time for his "awake" time. His awake time lasts anywhere from 2 to 4 hours. He is asleep right now, but I just drank some coffee so I could wake-up. So, I'll let you know if I accomplish my goal....

I'm too tired to come up with a title :P

Originally uploaded by ladyrhowan.

For a couple days this week I was able to get 7 hours of sleep. 7 hours in a row, all at once, for two days! Today I am back to not being able to nap and no prospect of getting any sleep anytime soon. I have never been a nap person and I'm not having any luck trying to nap now. I just cannot function when I first get up...it takes forever for me to wake-up, which does Baby G no good and doesn't do me much good when I have to try and clam his screaming cause I am just not fast enough to attend to him. Though not getting any sleep isn't doing us a bit of good either. He sleeps for an hour at a time, usually. Sometimes it's only 20 to 30 minutes. I spend my time between feedings playing Finaly Fantasy XII.
Anyway, this picture shows my creativity in keeping him occupied while I get his bottle or get myself some food, and he just won't sleep. I printed some geometric pictures from Fussybaby.net and used them to replace the toys on his bouncer. He is much more interested in these at this time, and I can replace the toys when he is ready for them. For now, this is working great.
We are also having problems with his extreme gassiness. His new nickname is Farty McBarty (it rhymes). The poor thing is in so much pain sometimes. The first two weeks of sleeping constantly are now over and we have awake time for about 4 to 6 hours a day. Tomorrow he is 3 weeks old.
He's out right now so I need to go eat while I can. I'll post more when I can.

Who Needs Sleep?

Who Needs Sleep
Originally uploaded by ladyrhowan.

Aaron is back at work and Baby G is sleeping unpredictably. 10 minute naps aren't quite doing it for me.

Maternity Leave Rocks!

I am officially on maternity leave now. My last day at work was Saturday and it's been so great not to have to worry about getting enough sleep to make it through work the next day, or how tired I will be at the end of the day. The nesting instinct is slowly coming on; I've gotten the pantry cleaned out and today I cleaned out the freezer to make room for the frozen meals I plan to cook this week. Sleeping is still not going well. I am so sore after a 2 to 3 hours that I just toss and turn. I usually just get up for a few hours and then go back to bed for a couple hours; take naps during the day. It's also nice to have "me" time before Baby G gets here. I am very much looking forward to him being out in here in the world; not only so I can drink again and enjoy my venti quad caramel machiattos, lol, but I just can't wait to see him!

I N S O M N I A

Ugh! For the past month I have been waking up after 3 hours of sleep and not able to go back to sleep for about 2 or 3 hours. I can only sleep 2 to 3 hours at a time. Is this my body's way of preparing me for what's coming up?

8 months

8 months
Originally uploaded by ladyrhowan.

Not really anything new to report. I am big, like a beached whale, and tired and looking forward to my son being here. It's almost 6 in the morning. I've been up since 3 am. I needed a glass of water and just decided to stay up. I played a game, read some blogs and now I'm posting. I'll probably go back to bed after this.
I can only sleep for a few hours at a time right now. After 3 or 4 hours I get cramps in my hips and legs, I think it's all the extra weight because it's only on the side I am laying on that it hurts; if I turn over it goes away and the other side starts to hurt. Just a couple more months, people keep telling me. Ugh!

Sleep and Sex

Not that kind of sex...lol. I'm off this morning to find out the sex of my baby ;) Also, this is the second morning in a row that I have gotten out of bed with having had very little, if any, sleep. That Barenaked Ladies song just keeps going around in my head. Every night I get leg cramps from hell; and yes, I am getting enough calcium. I guess this is mother natures way of preparing me for the loss of sleep after the baby is born; just get used to it now.

So, I'm off to get ready for the big ultrasound in which I find out (I hope) if were are having a little blue baby or a little pink baby. :)

Sleeeeeeep

I need sleep!!! OMG! I need sleep!!! I'm running late this morning, because I started falling back to sleep!!! after my alarm went off. It's freezing cold and I've had about 3 hours of sleep and I have to be at a meeting in about an hour. And, I'm sick again. Gah!!!

Sleep

OMG! I need sleep! It's 3:30 am! I finally got to bed at 11:30 last night, and of course I tossed and turned for the next 4 hours. Now I have to get ready to go to work; I have to be there by 6 am. My manager says we are going home once the visit is over. If I make it through today, I'll post about it at some point.

I finished The Secret Life of Bees last night (hence the staying up till 11:30 when I should have been sleeping). What an awesome book!