Wednesday, December 21, 2005


This will be the first Christmas I have celebrated in about 12 years. I've been in retail so long that I just grew to hate this time of year and stopped celebrating all-together. With my daughter here this year and my sister having just moved close by, we decided, why not? So this morning we are finally going out to get a tree, and because we have not celebrated in so long, we have no decorations, so we'll have to start from scratch. I am really happy to have my family with me this year, it makes a big difference. I'll see if I can get some pictures of the tree up, once we finish.

Monday, December 19, 2005

I'm Netflixing This

I have always had a deep interest in religious history. I've considered getting a degree in it because I love it so much. I haven't had much time over the past couple years to do any reading, but recently my interest has been peaked again. I was at sometime last week, and I saw an ad off to the left for a movie, The God Who Wasn't There. I've added it to my netflix queue and am eagerly awaiting it. Maybe once my daughter gets into U.C. Berkeley, I'll take some classes there too. ;)

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Feeling Better

SO I actually ended up going out for my birthday. Aaron convinced me that I should get out and see a movie (even though that is inside still) I had lunch at Applebee's, fish-n-chips, then we went to Ikea, where Aaron bought me a little table for my laptop that I can use while sitting in my chair. After food and shopping, we went to see Narnia. Then I came home and got to work on homework that I forgot was due today.

The network connection between my laptop and the main computer keeps going out. I think something is screwed up on my end of the connection (what's new, haha). It's going to drive me crazy.

It's back to work tomorrow (do I have to?) and then on Monday my daughter will be here for Christmas.

Right now all I can think about is how great it would be if I didn't ever have to go back to work again. I wish I lived in a world where the perfect job for me would just happen. Ah, but no such luck. I'm 36 years old now and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. If only I could make a decent living knitting scarves and playing web designer. I wish I had time to devote to playing with web sites again. I'd love to get started in making templates for my blog. I don't have the time or energy at the moment. In fact I should be in bed right now, it's almost 2 am.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Birthday blahs

Well, today is my birthday. I had a little to drink last night and slept in a little late today; I'm feeling slightly hung-over.
I don't know what I want to do today. Aaron wants to take me to the city. The logical part of me says I need to stay home on this last day off before my class ends and finish my paper.

Monday, December 12, 2005


I really wish I would get in here more often to update. I am so stressed out and tired and just feel like giving up on everything. Work sucks to the point that I am leaving everyday crying from frustration. I don't know what to do or where to go. I'm going to spend the afternoon before work getting school work done and then updating my resume and getting it out there asap. I so wanted to put in my two weeks today. In fact I want to everyday, but the only thing stopping me is that I have bills to pay and no savings. This job is slowly killing me and I just can't take it anymore. I'm way too smart to be wasting my time in retail, it's not worth the health problems it's putting me through and, again, it's frustrating. There's got to be an easier way.